Too much is never enough..

Its been awhile ever since i have the time to blog about stuff..
Many things happened,many things learned,many mistakes made,many mistakes stored in people's mind,many people who will hurt and many people who will be hurt.


Everyday for me is a war with everyone all around me and worst of all- war with myself.
War with other people whom we are able to make peace with,but unanswered question i often ask,-How do i make peace with myself?..
When all i could do is bash my soul up and pressuring myself to be the best to do all i can, to be what everyone expect me to be, what everyone wants me to be, what everyone else thought i should be, what everyone else thought i am better if i'm bruised.


All these have taken me to think in another level.The other level that i thought its impossible to think about,to reach that high breaking point that i mistakenly think it doesn't exist..I never type or spoke like this before.
Somehow, what i've gone through recently had me changed drasticly to how i think,how i react, how i will feel and how i will view about everything at the end of the day.



For anyone who know me well enought,i'm a chirpy,bubbly,happy-go-lucky girl and am really good at hiding problems from others.I'm neither easily angered nor easily annoyed.But i cant help but to feel people are taking advantages on my strength.The strength to hold unpleasantness deep inside and not letting it penetrade out.As many ups and downs i've gone through, i have yet to believe there's plenty of worthfull or disasterous obstacles ahead of me.


In one way or another,i smile to myself now and then..How could i stay alive this long?.the reason for my strength,my belief and my confidence is God.He is always there for me.No matter how i betrayed his trust and triggered my promises at times,he still keeps me up on my feet.





Never the less i just could not tolerate people who do not understand the meaning of 'individuality'. Every individual being has their own ways in getting in to them.How do you convey what you are saying to an individual who need ways and tactics to get through them?.
For some people,a little of ruffling up and lots of pressure and they are on their way to success,..that will be the stereotype of method to be misused to EVERYone..tsk..tsk..There are people who needs a nicer and deeper approach to get through them.Why is it so hard for human beings to be less hostile towards their own kind and be more delicate.Still chose to ignore the existance of the word 'Rebel','Fear','Unconfident' and the lists goes on.




I could not really type about what i have been through recently to make me the way i am now,the morality of the situation itself has not been rested yet.My mind is like the cyclone itself waiting to be transformed to something massive.I am still dealing with hypocrites,black hearted bitches and snakes in a form of human. Never have i felt my life is such in a troubled mode like these ever before.Constantly being Over-pressured by people around me like as though they view me as a Lab-rat for experiments,"What will we do if the rat dies boss?","Well,..we'll get another new rat then!..".Sheesh..how disgusted i am with these sort of behavior.These self-centred and heartless people.Who enjoys comparing everyone else to one another and pressurized and bulliying people who are weaker.










How hard i tried in satisfying others who have expectations towards me,still,my best is never ever good enough..The worst thing for superior to be doing,is 'Trying to bring out the best in that person but instead, they brought out the worst in them'..Thanks to people like them,another poor soul's life and morale is destroyed..

Unpleasantly served by Alienation beings

I believe that i am not the only one who had an unpleasant experience dining or being served in our favourite Fast food restaurants,especially the ones serving us do not understand simple english at all.The popular Fast food restaurant amongs us all would be our loving Mc Donalds,yes, yes,the everly delicious Cheeseburgers and Big Macs..

I remebered enjoying being served at Mc Donalds by young and fresh jovial students,who is fast,quirky and friendly-cheeky at times.It touched my heart so much being served by old friendly aunties with their wits to struggle (or have the ability) to work in a fast pased line.

But now,not only i didn't see much of these young jovial servers,seems the fast food industries has been dominated by these foreign people.

When we mentioned-FAST food restaurants,what comes in mind is FAST service and obviously we will get our Food FAST!!.The simplest place to go for a quicker served meal to satisfy our tummy's desire,tempting feels or just simply spoiling ourselves..

The thing is,i don't mind foreigners working in these fast food places,BUT!!- damn it they don't understand simple english!English is a universal language!!Not once!Not twice!!But EVERY time i go to Mc i have all these unpleasant expirience which is COMPLICATED,Frustrating and annoying!!..leave the awesome food alone and let me share about a good service and complicating expirience me and hunny had..

On my Birthday,we went to the Mc Cafe at West coast,we've been served well by this singaporean young lady,she gave me a Mc Cafe card and explained to me well about the birthday promotion they are offering free coffee,frappes or any drinks in the month of your birthday,as long as you present your I/C..So i ask whether the card could be use in other Mc Cafes,she told me it could be use in all outlet.I was happy with the fast service and information given.

Then i went to another Mc Cafe,this china lady she is couldn't understand what i say and summoned the manager to help her with my order.I repeat the same thing and she seem damn clueless about the promotion.The manager couldn't speak simple english as well!!.There was an indian couple who stood beside me and my fiancee,they were pissed off as well because their order was wrong,and so many questions unanswered by the manager.Ending up,i bought myself a latte cuz i need caffeine to keep me in a Chirpy mood,and dismissed the unpleasant scenario i had.

Then recently,My Hunny would like to enjoy the Bday promo
on his bday,another group of alienated beings serving us,i gave her the card,she ask him to present his I/C,he gave her his 11B,the 11B is in a protective plastic case,she's not suppose to take the 11B out cuz it's torn badly and plus she could see the details as it can be seen clearly through the plastic case,she didnt even apologize for troubling me to put the11B in the casing back!(which is troublesome),then she calls for her manager,which speaks english that is hard to understand because she mix the whole sentence up and ask for the 11B again..took it out again and need me to give her the Mc Cafe card (again!).

We stood there for 15mins while they dilly dally talk chinese among themself which i clearly understand their blurness..A manager didn't seem to be aware of any promotion at all...My temper is going to come back to me if i keep on facing people like this.OMG.We are so freaking pissed!

Use to be the Fat-Sad,Now the Glad Quack =D

Hello there people,as you can see the picture to your left is a picture of me during my Fat and Sad years.Yup,65kg..and a recent picture of me-40kg.

Actually i had a hot bod before i expirience this traumatising period,42,25,47.Yes,i had a big nice butt.Thanks to my silly experiments to be "a lil fleshy" by drinking a carton of Full Cream milk in a daily basis for a whole month ending up i look like the one producing the Milk-The Cow. -_-

That is just the half upper part of my fat picture,you do not want to see the rest..please no..*sigh*

I would say,during this Fat and Sad years of my teenage year,it was rather heart rentching to go through life as being an obesed girl.I went through multiple harshful words and critics by family,friends and strangers.I couldn't take it much longer,so i developed an ambition to be how i was before-Slim.

I learned the fast way of losing those unwanted fats really fast!.No expensive slimming products,or any fancy brands that was sold here and there;it is just plain traditional way-The Tamarind Paste. =)

Mum taught me to grab a whole handful of the tamarind paste(which is used for cooking),then mix it well in a jug full of water,threw the excess seeds away and drink it unsweetened everyday.Well,i was desperate to lose weight fast,so instead of a jug,i drank 3 jugs a day.It doesn't taste as pleasant as it smells,but day by day,i learn to enjoy the taste and benefits of it.As i start to see results immediately.

I lose a total of 25kg in just one solid month.Believe it,i seriously lost it all in a month. 65kg to 40kg,and i have been in this weight till now.(even i ate like a pig,i still remains 40kg)..So if you felt the need to shed off pounds,traditional way is even better.But don't consume as much as i do,just a jug per day is okay.

I am thankful to God that he gave me the oppotunity to be in the shoe of an obese girl for a moment,like what people talk about karma,yeah,i use to be d bitch who critised fat girls ,I would say it was rather sucky and hard.I just couldn't handle the pain and compliments people around me gave,so i just had to get back in shape,.

I'd tell you,i respect and salute all obesed girls,it takes so much more to handle those blossoming curves and flesh.It needed lots of self confidence and wits to feel good in your own skin.I couldnt handle being fat,i'm happy the way i am now.Rest assure i am not gonna criticised any obese people anymore. =)

Cheers and hugz!!

My Work,My Customers?

Hello hi people!
For those of you who know who i really am,you would definitely know that i am a 'Customer service' type of person and yup-i love food,so this is where F&B takes place in my likings as a job.

Many years of working in F&B has make me a person who is concern about good food and catering to customers needs.

To all the nice and wonderful customers i thank you all so much for giving me the opportunity to give my best at serving you,and your names are kept in my good books.*smiles*



For the son of a moronic customers who think they are too bloody rich and 'atas' than everyone else,who treats normal people like us considering a low life shit,and dining in a RESTAURANT and grumbles about the timing of the food served (want food fast-go mc donald u sick freak!) and humiliate servers by their non sensical stupid yet dumb unrelevant questions and shoo-ing servers away when they want to give service.

Then at the end of their visit,complaining to the managers saying the restaurant they are in have the worst service ever...For people cum customers like that,screw you and eat shit.
Bare this in mind,i represent servers here and there,do shit to us during our work time,perhaps we could just shut up because we wouldn't want to lose our job in this badly hit economic crisis,after our work time,damn right it will be personal.

Fucking customers who treat other people like trash,all i have for you is just basket full of vulgars and curses for you.teehee..

In F&B line,you do shit to people working there and yet still dine in,you'd consider yourself damn lucky for not finding or tasting an extra ingredients inside your meal.So do ponder hard on bitching on people like us.We ain morons like you.If you think we enjoy serving idiotic people like you and we will die without your service tips,well you are dead wrong.

Thinking of the Polite and sweet customers that i have serve before,and my regular customers,they just melt my heart and just makes me feel like perform and catering to their needs to my very best.I do believe in 'Going the extra miles' wholehearted.Not just because its apart of my job.I felt it is my responsibilities.Warm wishes to the great,spontaneous and loving customers.Nyehehehe *smiles*

Woops!that's all for now friends,Tatas! X)